You were everything to me
But you showed me that
To you
Everything was more important than
Me
I wanted
To build a life with you but
You
Couldn’t even build me into
Your life
Do you know how hurtful it is to feel like you mean nothing to your everything?
While I made you more important than everything
You
Made me more important than nothing
-I chose us
I’m tired of my 3 pm thoughts turning into 2am thoughts when I can’t sleep and the reason is you.
.
I said it’s hard to treat you like just a friend and he said I know but I think we should get used to it
-what happens when eyes speak louder than words?
I’ll never forget the time I asked you to promise me that no matter what we’ll always be best friends
And you said yes
Even as the words left my mouth I knew it was foolish to believe something could last forever
December 2017
You acted like you just had lust for my body
Like our souls weren’t made to match perfectly
Like we were never meant to be
You and me
If it were up to me
We would be
.
December 2016
God knows nobody could get that purple sweater off of me
I was 3 years old, sitting in 40 degree weather and refused to take it off
It was purple and that was all I wanted
If you were a song you’d be purple
It’s your favourite colour,
It was mine too
And it was all I wanted
It’s still all I want
.
You make the music I was created to
The sound
Will always feel like going home
.
November 2016
More than any of my unfinished canvases
You have taught me of my lack of patience
You are the ultimate masterpiece
Beautiful
If only I could find the patience
When did you stop helping me pick up my pieces and start creating more
My heart is sore
I’m tired of loving, loving, loving
Literally exhausted
I don’t know where all my pieces went
I guess I gave too many away
I thought you were worth it babe
Thought you’d give them back
Multiply
The love tenfold
Look what’s left, can you see
See me
Hear me
What’s left?
Always reminding me how present you are a bottle deep
You like to remind me how I’m always your priority
While ignoring my needs
You don’t see a future anymore with the person you promised forever to
Because you are unable to love the monster
You made out of me
-conditional “unconditional” love
